Motherhood

Some days being a mother is the most rewarding and wonderful experience in the world. Others it's like being in a war and going to battle.

Before I had kids I could have told you exactly what I thought you should do and say and allow and not allow in order to be a good parent. Today I just pray through every moment that I am making the right decisions as I'm parenting.

Knowing whether or not I'm making the right decisions as I'm 36 weeks pregnant is a hard call!

child #1
Mom, why do I have to take a bath tonight?
Mom, I want to eat supper right now. I don't want to wait until everyone is ready to eat.
I don't want to do my homework now.
It doesn't matter if my homework is neat or not.
I'm hungry and I need to take a snack before I take a bath.
I'm not taking a bath...I'm just going to eat these and then put my pajamas on.
(again) Why do I have to take a bath?

child #2
I'm not going to eat right now.
I'm going to eat later.
I'm ready to eat now. (food is warmed) I don't want to eat now.
No, I don't want to take a bath.
I'm so hungry...let me eat before I take a bath.
I''m sorry...I'll be nice now.
The water is too hot. It's burning my butt.
I don't want to wash off.
I want to wash myself.
I want you to wash me.
I don't want anyone to wash me.
The water is still hot.
I don't want to let the water out.
I wanted bubbles in the water.
I wanted to play with my toys.
I don't want to get out of the bathtub.
I don't want to dry off.
I don't want to put my pajamas on.
I want to do it myself.
I want you to help me.
I'm hungry.
I don't want to put my pajamas on before I eat.

child #3
"It's so nice and cozy in here."
"It's sounding crazy out there."
"I'm staying here."
"There's no way I'm going out there with those crazy people."
"Who are those people?"
"Am I going to have to live with them?"

me
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Why in the world do I have these kids?
Why in the world did I want another?
Get out of me - you're killing my back and I feel miserable.
No, wait, don't come out yet...I'm not ready for the lack of sleep on top of all this "fun" I'm having.
Baby girl, I want to see you....I'm ready for you to be born.
Thank you God for blessing me with these kids. PLEASE help me through it, though. I have no idea what I'm doing down here!