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I'm sitting here listening to my children playing with each other. They are loud, they are running, at times they are squealing, once there was a ball that almost went in the pot of soup. Brent is trying to watch television and of course can't hear what they are saying. The volume keeps going up and up. I'm just trying to sit here and enjoy my bowl of taco soup. So, what do you think I'm thinking?

Hmmm....There are a lot of positive things I'm thinking...I'm happy that they are getting along. I'm happy that they aren't asking me to get up and do something for me. I'm happy that they are 2 healthy boys without physical disabilities.

Now, I'm also thinking a couple of other things such as: Oh no, I'm going to have another one! What will I do when there are 3? Will I ever have time to sit down? Will one of them be left out? If it's a boy, can I handle THREE boys??? If it's a girl, what will she do? Will she act like a girl or will she just learn to act rough with the boys?

Another thing I'm thinking is - when we move into the new house, will they make use of and enjoy some private space or will they still want to be right where I am??

I'm really not sure how to answer any of these questions, but that's okay. As a friend posted on facebook today "God doesn't want us to try our best, He wants us to trust in Him." At this time in my life, that's definitely what I need to do! Trust and feel honored that He will bless us with another amazing creation that we get to call our own for awhile. Trust that I will know how to handle 3 children. Trust that I am doing the right things to be a good mother.